The last day of the 1st year

Ump - my uni...
i cant say Ump no gd cause Ump is my uni...
if Ump reputation no gd then how about my certification nx time?
but after 1st year i stay here i still dun like here...
in the early 2nd sem i start change my view point.
but at the end of 2nd sem, i had a miserable life here...

after my last paper, jz can i really have a smile...
cause i will go back to my home on 2nite...
after im home, i think i need stay in home for a few week...
if not, my family will mumbler me...cause i had a cut near my ear...
but nvm la...this will be a long holiday^^
i want earn many many money,
i want eat many many delicious,
n also have a crazy spree

and B4 I 4get,
all my fren in ump, hepi holiday and take care lo...
i dun apologize & my fren also no nd apologize lo
A fren no need to say sorry mah^^

8.30pm ad...
my ticket is 9pm bus...i need to hurry...
pls dun rain b4 i get into bus~
see U all nx sem^^

Operation

Today i have an operation near to my ear in a hospital at kuantan...
Actually, it is the 3rd time to do this kind of operation...
this time i go alone with no fear...
mayb it is a 3rd time & in tis 2 week my life was very mess...
study week- no water supply + dirty water...
exam week- infection + headache + operation...
wat a life...im like a dead man walking...
im jz doing wat i need to do with no feeling...
no anxious to face exam,
no fear to face operation,
mayb im tired&despair with wat hav happen
but im keep on believe the situation will change...

During the operation, i notice the doctor is a young & buetiful women~
the drug tat doctor used was not strong,
i can feel the blade is cutting me & the doctor push out the ichor...
the operation take time about 5 minit...
omg...it is very pain...
the doctor talk a lot with me during d operation,
& im hardly to answer she...
i feel i wanna to scream when i open my mouth...
its really hard to control our tone when some1 is cutting us(=.=)~

2moro & sunday im still need go to gambang clinic to wash my wound...
monday is my last paper...
i hope i can proceed the exam cause i dun wan to stay here...
i wanna go back my hometown & heal my wound & rest
hopefully after tat my wound will b ok...
its really hard to stand with the pain~

if its fate tat now is my hard time then i will stubbornly go against the stream...
like En.Hamzah said its a test in my life
3.45am...sleep loooo
happy go lucky...2moro will be a better day~~

My final test week eve~

In my study week, I have experienced a worst water shortage period.
5 days ad and more to come...the longest i hav experienced~
the authorities really noob...they only sent a truck to bring us water...
The weter is very dirty & nw have make my old wound near my right ear infected again...
I dun neo is it really infected but i can feel the pain nw...hopefully is not,
if really is then i hope the inflammation come after all my exam hav finish...haiz~
I hav told myself not to mumbling too much about UMP water shortage cos its a often issue
but nw i hav lose patience ad cause this make me sick...

Again, I dun prepare well during my study week...
I managed study all i nd to study but im not sure i hav memorized o not
tonite, im burning the midnight oil to study...
but weird, this time i dun feel anxious for my exam...

something happen tonite tat i hav considers it as coincident...
my hometown friends text me sum encouraging sms more than usual
like knowing i hav exam nx morning~~thk all...
1 of them told me
"stressed is just like desserts if U can reverse"...
lolx...i like tis sentence...

Hopefully this time i will do better than last sem...
Exam= 70% hardwork + 30% luck
I will try my best on the 70% so God pls giv me the 30%...
last night,My mum phone&remind me to pray before go to exam
I dun neo go where to pray at here so i jz pose this...haha
4.40am...better i go to sleep lo...

第2学期要结束了。。。

在UMP的第2个学期要结束咯。。。这学期期间没有假期所以好久没回家。。。
这学期功课好多，不过也开始慢慢的习惯了在这里的生活。
上学期考得不好，所以希望这回会有进步。。。
这学期没发生啥么特别事，简简单单的一天一天的过。。。
期间有些懒惰，不过要收拾心情了，年终考都急在眉头了。。。
打算考完试就直接回家了，不去玩了。
本来还想跟朋友去cerating散心的，不过莫部分朋友不去，我也不去了。。。
回家后我想我又会去做暑假工，一直以来都是将;
从form1的暑假开始我就每一年都打暑假工。。。
算算这样的生活已过了有8年了。说真的，这种生活还蛮累的。
开学就读书；假期就工作。不停在校园和社会两种不同的环境过。。。
交过满多种朋友，遇过蛮多种事情，听过蛮多人的经历，明白些在学校学不到的道理。

最近听到一首歌满好听的。。。

"越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不看梦想的翅膀被折断
也不得不收回曾经的话问自己
你纯真的眼睛哪去了？

越长大越孤单 越长大越不安
也不得不打开保护你的降落伞
也突然间明白未来的路不平坦
难道说这改变是必然？

你曾对我说 每颗心都寂寞
每颗心都脆弱 都渴望被触摸"

4.55am了。。。今晚又当只夜猫^^

convert of religon??

2day, my classmate ask me about convert of religion.
im a buddhism. but i also pray for indian god, go to church, chinese temple& thai temple.
But I never going into mosque& pray.
They ask me can I accept Islam o not...
I say I can cause i believe to all the good religion but i may not follow to all rules if i convert~
1st i dun wan puasa- if i give my commitment i think i still can do it~
2nd i dun like praying for so many times in 1 day-cause I believe praying is jz an acting to show.
when u going to work in future, it is also impossible to do so cause boss wont allow, idle time is a waste la~ en shariXXX teaching me 1...lolz
3rd i cant accept jz praying for jz only 1 god-cause I also accept other good religion.
( i dun aim at any religion, sorry if im wrong& sorry if i make u dun feel good )
My chinese friend always laught at me, say im like a malay cause I dun like pork.
but i dun think i can be~~

I had went to sunday school in a temple that base on buddhism teaching,
when im still in primary school years.
How many years i stay there i forgot ad~
But i have learn sumthing there
N i will never forget.
what i have learn there make how i behave now.
I won't fully folo to the religion rules.
But i make rules to myself N it is my bottom line.

bottom line-wat i believe n do
-Human cant be prefect so dun too remorse when u wrong as long as u willing to change
-Human cant cantrol his fate but must hardworking;my monther always tell me 70% is hardwork & 30% is luck. so to her~if i wont get 70 above in exam tat mean im lazy...ZZZ
-Human not a saint so no need too kind to everyone as long as u dun hurt them.
-never try drug
-try to be honest
-its too many and i lazy to list out ad....
nearly 4 am loooooo