Thursday, March 31, 2011

haiz, no mood+ low motive

4am++ still need to desperate for homework>.<
bt its doesnt matter~ this is d way i choose~
bt...
lastnite, i receive a call and some1 tell me stories...
i seem to be can feel sadness through the phone~
thing are going more n more worst~~
y? some family are very blessed bt some no~

and same as poeple
now...here
i live with thousand of people but i have no 1


MAD WORLD

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out spaces, worn out places
Bright and early with the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere


And the tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
And my head, I want to drown my sorrows
No tomorrow, no tomorrow


And I find it kind of funny and I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
And I find it hard to tell you and I find it hard to take
When people run in circles, it's a very, very
Mad world, mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen

I went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher, tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me


And I find it kind of funny and I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
And I find it hard to tell you and I find it hard to take
When people run in circles, it's a very, very
Mad world, mad world, mad world, mad world


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

迷茫的迷失了自己

参加了一个program以后,我的生活完完全全的被打乱了。
计划好的没做到,离自己的目标越来越远,好失望。。。
而且还丧失了原有的动力和自信,就像是很累的,对啥么都不感兴趣~
怎么办???
是不是算错了,走错了就要这么狼狈吗?唉。。。
忙碌的生活里,该关心的人都没去问候,拥有的机会又没得好好利用~失败>.<
自从去了上海以后生活就一直堕落的过着。。。
完全激起了我玩世不恭,放荡的细胞~
原来我跟以前还是一样,解不了。。。真是春风吹又起~死灰可复燃~
从去上海的前几天就outing了几次,去了上海边玩边做program的过了1个多星期~
一回来就outing,然后又去金马伦,回来又继续outing~
每拜6晚连家人朋友打电话来聊天我也不能说多两句~~唉。。。抱歉~
玩得那么疯得到啥么? 开心吗? 绝对不。。。
长大了还可以像以前那样玩吗? 绝对不。。。
越长大就是越错不起,因为没有本钱了~

而且,最近一个男子朋友把我以前做过的一些事告诉另一个女子朋友,
虽然有点加盐加醋,但差不了多少。。。然后男的问女的,cheng是怎样的人。
没想到答案是“cheng很坏,阴森,奸诈”>.<。。。靠, 我还是第一次被人这么说~
连最近印度roomate也说我不是好人~~靠。。。无话可说

虽然我不后悔我所做过的一切,但我不想变回以前那样好玩~
form6时玩得那么疯,我都能抽身离开选了UMP这么leong的地方。。。
我现在怎么可以放任自己~~~
既然form6时明白,没考好就是浪费2年的时间,
那么现在我得告诉自己,再玩下去就是在UMP浪费4年~

我要好好反省,下定决心~