it is a challenge rather than a give~~

today, shanghai academic visit interview.
result is i have pass in the interview~~
my friend and others may congratulate me but they dun neo
it is a big challenge rather a merit...
it is nt like somesay, durian runtuh.
all the target are tough to achieve and is really smothering me...
bt i neo i will gain a lot after this~~

my nx sem activities
- piala nc in jan
-shanghai visit in feb
-plannning vietman visit~~

haiz...bzbzbz....

good news~

good news come~~

visiting china~~

9 of 11 who apply will get their place~~

so i think i will get it~~

but nw~~

i realize i over spend ad~~

2 times outing in three day to sing k, eat steamboat, go water park~~

so i decide~~

from tomoro~~

i will make a spending record table~~

then i think i will be in shock to realize tat such many i spending~~

money money~~

com to me~~

i dun wan anything else nw except "U"

($.$).......

sadness

somtimes its very hard for us to admit somthing until we loss it...

what is the feeling when...

when som1 u like stand in front of you, but u cant say u like she... 

when som1 u like sit beside you but u cant tell her that u like her...

when u saw the distance from each other is being apart slowly day by day... 

it jz like yr heart being stab by a blade~

and its already gone...

how do i do to be patient~~~~~~~~~~~~

im such a failure

game over~
i repeat sem 1 mistake~
i neo i weak in calculation subject~
but i dont face it seriously~
its over now~
silly failure~
im sorry for myself n my mom~
i should given a slap~
last nite i feel im growth up but nw i neo i dont~

长大

突然发现自己思想变了很恨恨多。

今天有一点不高兴但我发现，

当不开心时要靠自己让自己开心，不可以盼望别人。

如果你说自己很难让自己开心的话；

要别人来让自己开心的话；

那就等于你把你的不开心丢给他，要他帮你解决。

这样的话就更难了。

就算是你的朋友，也最好不要！！！

所谓朋友

三年前，朋友对你好

三年后,

他可能对你更好.

也可能对你不好

甚至是利用你~

人与人相处，

刚开时总是迷迷糊糊，

时间久后就会发现，

友谊的价值，

那就是当初该不该交这个朋友。

朋友是对等的

他让你开心，你也要让他开心

所以我开不开心从不怨朋友。

长大就是要学会self-motivate;p

self motivate 不止是自动自发，也要自己安慰自己。。。

靠人不如靠己~

这样算不算长大？

22岁了，

小孩看到我时，

没叫我叔叔已经偷笑了XD

长大果然越来越孤单，因为常常要独自面对问题。

长大果然越来越不安，因为问题越来越多，越来越难。

长大以后要收回梦想告诉自己，面对现实。

真想去找我以前做工认识的一个姐姐，

她说在我眼里看到纯真，做的决定很天真

现在我想问她看到啥么。。。

长大以后，

脸的表情常常是这样的----〉囧

回教堂念完经了，

我也该睡了。

忘了等下9点要见老师@@

i found the song i like to add on my blogger ^_^

firstly,
today should be a relax nite for me
but everything turnover after some happening...
having some conflict with my fren but its ok nw.
small matter n i hope its really ok...settle man~

then nw~
im quite happy cause i found the way hw to add on music in my blogger..hihi
i neo its easy, bt im nt a pro in bloggr mah~
so many nice song i found and i choose this...
i like the most:-

sun41_-_-_ pieces

I try to be perfect  努力追逐完美

But nothing was worth it  却遭人唾弃

I don't believe it makes me real  这难以置信的现实 

I'd thought it'd be easy 认为轻而易举

But no one believes me 却无人相信 

I left all the things that I said 我只能将它藏起 

Chorus: 

If you believe it's in my soul  如果你还相信这颗灼热的崩溃的心 

I'll say all the words I know 我会将一切坦白于你 

just to see if it would show 你会看到它真实的颤动 

But I tried to let you know 但是我还是要让你懂 

that I'm better off on my own 或许我会走自己的路 

This place is so empty 我的世界如此空虚 

My thoughts are so tempting 而孤独却想逃避 

I don't konw how it got so bad 我不懂为什么这样 

Sometimes it's so crazy 有时它会疯狂 

that nothing could save me 甚至无法拯救 

But it's the only thing that I have 可是疯狂已是我的所有 

Chorus: 

If you believe it's in my soul 如果你还相信这颗灼热的崩溃的心 

I'll say all the words I know 我会将一切坦白于你 

just to see if it would show 你会看到它真实的颤动 

But I tried to let you know 但是我还是要让你懂 

that I'm better off on my own 或许我会走自己的路 

( on my own)

I tried to be perfect 曾为你追逐完美

It just wasn't worth it 却毫无意义 

Nothing could never be so wrong 我从未陷入如此的困境 

It's hard to believe me 想相信我很难 

It's never gets easy 我从来都让人不安 

I  guess I knew that all along我想这我一直都明白 

Chorus: 

If you believe it's in my soul 如果你还相信这颗灼热的崩溃的心 

I'll say all the words I know 我会将一切坦白于你 

just to see if it would show 你会看到它真实的颤动 

But I tried to let you know 但是我还是要让你懂 

that I'm better off on my own 或许我会走自己的路

its nt a happy song but i jz like the bitter feels its bring~~

曾为你追逐完美却毫无意义 

惨！！！

等了一晚， 没收到。

第2天，早上收到一个， 晚上收到一个。

还有第3个没反应的，都不知道明天能不能早点收到。

晚上收到那个，郁闷。

看了都要心脏病，很多部分都看不明白。

一个呢，做多些就脸黑黑，

一个呢，明天要他帮忙他就问东问西。小姐我怎么知道哦，不能等明天一起讨论吗？

一个呢，该传给我的等了两天都等不到，我还能说啥么？

一个呢，就是那个传很多部分都看不明白的东西给我的。

一个呢，他帮了很多又常常不舒服《---这个应该休息

我呢，明天要把功课做完，能不能做到，真担心。。。

说到担心，真不知道其他人会不会担心。

难道你们以为就这样做了一点点就能完成了吗？

明天要怎麽办呢？？？

没眼看。。。

现在3.00半夜，收到一个信息，哪个没反应的终于有反映了，哈哈

她帮忙了，好消息^^

写到这里才发现，原来刚刚自己stress 了~~

所以该睡了，明天早点醒来快快努力把功课做完。希望做到吧。。。。

在这里我并没有怪任何人，

一个组如果失败那就是全部组员都有过失，包括自己。。。